At Last, We Begin Anew…

It has been a while since I last wrote on TPOT. And it wasn’t because I ran out of things to say, but rather it’s been so hectic lately that I lost track of time. And as time went on I forgot about a lot of things that were important to me. And writing openly and expressively is one of them. This school year is my last one at McNair Academic High School, my last year being a TORCH leader, a JROTC Cadet, and my last year spending my time with friends. And the sad truth is, it doesn’t feel like we’re seniors.

I spent a lot of time thinking about all the shit I have been through and all the times I spent laughing and crying. It’s been one hell of a year. And it is nice to think about the past, to take a second to step outside of what is currently going on and basically just… chill. I loved every moment of this year no matter how crappy it was. And the only thing I have to do today is wish it away with a good goodbye and get ready for this coming new year.

At the beginning of each new year, we write down a list of resolutions that we try to keep at the beginning, but sooner or later forget. And I’m actually no exception. I always write down the same shit each year, and once in a while I will keep it, but most of the time I don’t. However, this year, I want to have resolutions that I want to keep. So here is my list…

1. Get enough sleep.
2. Pick a college.
3. Have a girlfriend that’s worth the effort.
4. Keep my resolutions.
5. Cherish each moment.
6. Follow my path.

Seems easy enough, right? Well 1, 2, and 5 are a given. Yet 4 depends entirely on 3 and 6. And 3 is only considered a pass if I find a girl that’s worth keeping. So we are left with number 6. Follow my path. What I mean by following my path is I want to be “ME.” It may seem easy enough, but it really isn’t. Have you ever noticed, when you are with your friends, you act differently? Yes? No? Well you actually do if you compare your actions with how you act with your family or your neighbors. I want to be honest with others about who I am and what I do. And so we begin anew…

At this moment, I feel like I’m ranting about some random shit that no one really cares about. And if you actually read this far, it means you either care what I’m saying, you’re passing the time, or you find this to relate to you in some odd and creepy way. Well, I don’t blame you for either. And of course I’ll get those people who will read this and laugh and saying that this is some sort of bull shit when they themselves are too ignorant to understand the simply complex actions of a person or are too stupid too under human emotions and words pass the usual sexual hunger that fills their simple and pitiful lives.

Ok, now that I got that part out of the way, let us continue. What I mean about following my path is that I want to just be… open to possibilities. I want people to understand that I believe in God, but hate religion. That I have childish tendencies, like having a pikachu doll, and I don’t find it embarrassing. I love to take pictures and spend my time stargazing with friends while talking about nothing at all. I don’t want to be another run-of-the-mill McNair Academic High School Nerd that graduates this place without distinguishing his or herself.

I love people who are expressive and unique, as long as they aren’t offensive. I find lies to be intricate stories rather than hidden indications of what one wants. I rather sleep and play video games than study. And I love to eat at Heaven. (Inside McNair Joke.) This year, that’s my main resolution. To follow my path and be truthful to myself. And I hope other people can do so too.

I would really love for someone to approach me and say, “I read what you wrote. And I…” I don’t care if you agree or disagree, but if you have an opinion that isn’t retarded, I’ll listen. I love to hear people just randomly talk about tipping cows or solving calculus problems. I want to see people doing stupid things out of fun rather that attenton. I have the passion to try and understand what is going in the world and what people are thinking. To me, I enjoy the uniqueness that plagues my school and it’s diversity.

At last, we begin anew…and I end this old year with a rant about what I want for this new year.

Enjoy and Happy New Years.

- Romer Jed